SO, I have to be honest, I really wanted to be completely transparent with my blog. And I planned to speak on my love life often, and way more than I have. That was my vision with naming this tab “Girls Need Love.” But after the first post, I thought to myself: “This is kind of depressing” lol. But this is what I am going through but it won’t be the end *sends prayers to God*. With that being said, here we go.
I woke up this morning to a text message from my friend saying “we need to find you a man.” Lmao, this made me feel great… NOT! Like girl, don’t you think I want to be in a relationship and have someone who wants to bond and build with me? Make me feel beautiful even when I am in-between hairstyles and need to get my hair done. I want to go one new adventure and create memories with a significant other, but I am not settling. I have yet to come across someone of value. Someone who meets basic standards of being honest, genuine and consistent. But I’m not gonna lie, I created a Tinder because I am starting to feel the pressure. And I am not insecure, but with that said, what is the disconnect? What have I sewn into the universe that has deemed me isolated from love 😩 this is tragic… drop positivity quotes in he comments at this point lol
But to stamp how single I am, I am going to the movies later to see The Hate You Give. I really want to see it and I am not going to allow my singleness to prevent me from seeing it. So if it isn’t clear, I am single SINGLE
This past weekend I met Miss America. She is so down to earth. I never paid attention to pageants so I was not familiar with her prior. Nonetheless, it was a very pleasant experience. She spoke about how she too was discouraged by others not seeing her potential, like many other black girls. And it did not even pertain to her interests in pageants, but her other passion: music and the arts. I was honored to simply be in the presence of a young, black woman who was following her dreams and defying the odds and being an ideal example for young girls who look like us.
Going to Atlanta this weekend for a conference… super excited. I have never been to the ATL before. This is actually a place that I would be open to living after graduation. I am going to a networking event held by Publicis.. a marketing communications conglomerate. I still have not secured a job for after graduation, so please pray all goes well and the bag is secured.
So do you ever talk to your close girlfriend, and she spills the tea on what’s going on with her, and it’s not good(positive) tea, therefore, it’s piping hot tea and you almost fall to the floor, bump your head, faint and come back in shock? Well, that’s me too. So basically the tea was: she and her boyfriend of 3+ years, whom she shares a home with decided that they needed a break. So I am like okay, that’s something they can recover from if it’s stemming from a need of self-development. But then she says, “no – Lex its more. He gave another girl head after I already caught them communicating.” [Pause]. Let the record reflect that I began to wrap a cord around my neck to see if this was a reality lol (not to actually harm myself, I am just extremely dramatic). She then tells me that his reasoning is because she has not been giving him enough attention, that she has been too focused on work and not on him. Mind you – we are 21-22 years old. This is the age that we must establish ourselves, and you are telling me that because it is grind season that gives you permission to step outside of your commitment to your girlfriend? And hearing this really hurt me, not because this is my friend but because of who my friend is. Who is she? She is one of the most determined people that I know. She traveled across the world to follow her dreams, with a less than ideal beginning. No job, no support and no idea how things were going to actually play out. But she stuck it out, stayed low, and now she is up UP. Dream job recently graduated and taking the necessary steps to make herself great. And because of this, she was violated. Why can’t men give women the benefit of the doubt that we give them? Because a woman would have acknowledged the man’s hustle and made an excuse for his lack of presence in the relationship, but guys run to the next easy solution? With that being said, let me ask, am I being too harsh or am I on point with my view of women never getting the benefit of the doubt? Let me know in the comments, maybe I am getting ahead of myself.
Clearly, selfies are my thing. I think it’s because I prefer my angle and perspective over any that someone may offer me as an alternative.